Coming Back From Defeat. By Lisa Davidson

June 26th 2014. TORONTO. Lisa Davidson is thrilled to be back as a STWM Digital Champion for the second time. Lisa has raced every distance from 5K to the marathon and is excited to lace up for another 42.2K run around Toronto on October 19th. Lisa believes in the importance of both mental and physical well-being and strives to inspire others to lead a healthy and active life-style. When she’s not training or teaching Yoga, she’s chasing after her very active 3-year old boy. Connect with Lisa on Twitter @TorontoFitMom and on her blog.

Coming Back From Defeat. By Lisa Davidson.

2014 DC STWM Lisa DavidsonBQ. Boston Qualifier. It doesn’t matter if it is abbreviated or not, when runners speak these words or initials, something happens. A longing, desire, drive, whatever you want to call it, we get hungry. People have it in their ‘about me’ sections on social media. You know: runner, #STWM digital champion, Boston Qualifier. To get that qualifying time puts in you in a different running class and to get in to the marathon and run it? Well don’t even get me started on the prestige! The jackets, the hype! And in Boston….a city that I LOVE!

When I ran my first marathon back in 2008, I knew of the hard to get BQ, but I just wanted to run a marathon and didn’t think anything of it. In the back of my mind I thought maybe one day, but focusing on finishing my first marathon was a priority. Fast forward to my second marathon (STWM) in 2013 and let’s just say my view changed slightly….ok a lot, I wanted it bad! I did my training, I did my yoga, and I was feeling good. October 20th I woke up and was anxious to get going. I felt amazing until about 32k when I felt pain so intense it slowed me down to a pace that I knew would not get me that BQ.

I didn’t get it that day. I crossed the finish line and I was in tears, and not the happy emotional kind, the I am devastated and absolutely crushed kind. Never mind that I had just crossed the finish line of a marathon, an amazing accomplishment on its own (and in 4:11, no less about an hour faster than my first), there was no amount of support to make me feel better. I swore I would never again run a full marathon.

I saw my chiropractor, I got massages. Even today, my piriformis on the left side is still painful and has limited my flexibility, which as a yoga teacher is a real pain in the butt (no pun intended). More than the physical pain, I spent a long time feeling completely defeated and broken emotionally. I wanted that BQ so bad I could taste it. I was being told from some people that maybe I just shouldn’t be running the full, that maybe my “body just can’t handle it”, which just upset me more. I didn’t want to hear the “You know you are closer to 40” excuse anymore either, I wanted everyone to just stop talking.

In November, I joined a gym where I started doing strength training 2- 3 days a week, and with the nasty winter we had I did a lot of running on the treadmill. I ran outside as much as I could despite the cold, slush, snow, ice.. The spring came andI was happy to be back as a digital champion ambassador for the Toronto Yonge Street 10K. I ran that race in a minute  faster than the previous year and I started to feel like a runner again.

With talk of STWM 2014 buzzing on social media, I was Lisa sore today strong tomorrowbeing asked by many of my running friends if I was going to run it again. I honestly didn’t know, I would sigh and say “I think so”. The truth is I was constantly going back and forth in my mind. I knew I could finish a marathon, but finishing was no longer good enough. I started training with a coach (who is perfect for me!) in May, and I have started to really see what I am capable of as a runner.

Despite all these very positive changes, I still doubt myself. One day I made up my mind  that I was no longer running marathons, only half-marathons. Then I woke up the next morning and I saw that someone had posted the “There’s a Hero in All of Us” STWM video from last year, and I cried because I knew in my gut I was not finished with the marathon yet! After speaking about my fears with my coach, he told me that this year was going to be different and that he would help me every step of the way. Isn’t that what coaches are for? After CRS asked me back as a Digital Champion, I took it as a sign that I needed to run STWM this  year.

So here we are, four months from another full marathon. Am I anxious? Yes, of course. But here’s the thing – I love running, I really do and I am proud that I am now a full-fledged #runnerd. I am getting stronger every day and I am even cross training in the pool. I am taking it one day at a time, one workout at a time. Want to know what my goal is this year? I am keeping it under wraps for now, but I promise I will let you all know what happens at the race.

I am going to enjoy my training, enjoy the entire process and have fun. I will run STWM with thousands of other runners and when I cross the finish line this year, if there are tears they will be tears of happiness. No matter what. I’m back!

What’s your goal at STWM this year?

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